Atmānanda- Laharī

  40. The real Mokśa  Mokśa is divided by those who know And three ideas they throw One is with the form, firmly fixed Another is formless, third is mixed  Displacement in this speech is hidden Freedom while living is simply unridden Freedom from the body mind complex That can be experienced in the annex With aging sense organs slow down Body is left behind, just as a gown Some believe in this idea of 'merging' To enjoy the freedom of converging Some believe the state of no return When there is nothing to yearn Both together is mixed in the poll Sadeha and Videha is what they call Bhagavan Ramana states here Let us pay attention to hear The one who classifies these  Has to be gone to feel the ease Freedom from all classifications Freedom from all divisions Freedom from the classifier Freedom from the loka jumper Entering Brahma loka is a difficult task Spend lifetime in Yoga and Yajña mask They then listen to Brahma, teaching in gloom We listen happily, from home in ...

  39.  Are we there yet ? Are we there yet ? Not yet Are we there yet ? Not yet  Are we there yet ? Not yet Are we there yet?  Let us live the life  And look at the self Won't you look within  And ask who am I ? What do you see?  Body Does the body feel bound?  No Will the body want to diet? No. Will eat happily if you feed Won't you look within  And ask who am I ? What do you see?  Senses Can the senses function independently? No, Senses depend on the mind  Won't you look within  And ask who am I ? What do you see?  Mind Is the mind sentient ? No, mind is inert Can the mind shine by itself? No.  It shines like the moon  With the borrowed light  Won't you look within  And ask who am I ? What do you see?  Ahankarā Is the Ahankara Satya or Mithya? hmmmm It is a mixture of both What is it made of ? It is a combination of two  Subjective and objective components Where is this bondage located? It i...

38. Mithya within Mithya 'I am the doer' is a long rope That results in action slope All actions are done to enjoy That creates a tight bondage           One may cross the road to get the bus  But may slip, fall and create a fuss  Three forms of results emerge from actions They together create all transactions One that has already began is Prarabdha This is the ball of dough ready to roll The storage bank is called Sanchita Joining that is Aagami that you accumulate The suitcase has two compartments  The papa and punya departments To empty them, the cycle is repeated Jiva is born again and greeted  Own omissions and commissions Pile up inside as guilt Other's omissions and commissions Accumulate as hurt  When the truth is seen by inquiry The right string of the knot is pulled All doubts go away  All Karmas melt away  Stop decorating the Ahankara It is a Mithya within Mithya Close the karma balance sheet Just like the ...

  37. Mokśa is not an  experience   Moving from duality to nonduality is not true Everything is Brahman, even when not in view Some refuse to drop doing puja They cling to the action of worship Some latch on to mantra and meditation some hold on to teaching as an addiction The idea is to be without any crutches  Feel good stories with random act of kindness They get viral and shine as a gem and bless 'Amazing Grace' song may be sung by a blind When vision is established for the mind But Mokśa is not an event like that No 'enlightenment day' in Vedanta Mokśa is not a special experience Mokśa is not bound by time Oneness is 'experienced' in sleep Oneness is noted in Samadi  Oneness is present in in pralayā But all these are temporary  The facts are always facts The math of 10 +10 is always 20  It was 20 even before the child discovered It is same after the child discovered.  Knowledge is Vastu tantram It is unchanging and independent One is never bo...

36. Notion of Samsarā Ahankarā comes in a variety pack It needs lot of tools to unpack Atmā does not need liberation Ahankarā is the one that needs liberation 'Soaham' is an affirmation given for contemplation It is not a mantra or prayer for devotion 'Soaham' contemplation helps as an antidote Vedanta is the log that makes one stay afloat Drop the umbrella, when sun and rain have gone Graduate from the school of rituals at the dawn Stories are nice to illustrate habitual orientation Some notions are strong and stubborn needing ablation There was a man who thought he is a 'cat' He was convinced and squeaked at a rat He walked on all fours And drank from the bowls With persistent therapy he walked upright But still refused to come out on sight He was afraid  that street dogs could attack He thought they still won't know that he is human Habitual orientation takes time to be cleared Contemplation is need for them to be destroyed Persistent inquiry and abidance...

 35. Dangerous distraction by Siddhis Siddhis are powers gained in this journey There are variety of games in this tourney Murky water of siddhis described in categories We hear about them in all puranā stories Lord Hanuman had all eight siddhis Anima, Mahima, Garima, Laghima Prapti, Prakamya, Istiva, Vasitva These are obtained by various means Siddhi of the Siddhi is understanding Self  Dreams are falsified and put off the shelf   Dreams are not real when one is awake Drop the acquired siddhis with a big shake The dream of ignorance is broken The ignorance is also 'As though' Knowing this is the best siddhi This is the miracle of the miracle of the miracle Ignore the siddhis when they come  Don't detour from your destination Don't eat in a fly infested road side cafe When the real restaurant is at your bay  Class 39  ( later part) Class 40 beginning)

  34. The winding path of Maya  Maya that appears in Jivā's head to dwell Even erudite person come under Her spell They know a lot but become judgmental They forget  erudition should just be ornamental Some take sanyāsa , but still show off their talent They become competitive to establish their presence Showing off comes out drastically It may come across bluntly or sarcastically Vidya, Vishaya and Yogananda gives joy All of them are union with svarúpā to enjoy Knower and known fusion is a treasure All is well that bends well gives pleasure Means are mistaken for end by humans Obsession and confusion drive us to the new ones Distraction make one a hollow scholar with loud mouth, they put people in holler Followers make them more popular They move away from the real spectacular You cannot be broken and whole At the end one gets a hollow hole Silence will help correct these mistakes Observe the thoughts and take a break The path is full of these twists and turns With care ...

 33. Spring Cleaning  Spring cleaning is done for the buster Dusting is done with the  'Na iti' 'Na iti' duster  Sun does not need a flashlight to be seen 'I' need no agent of action to be known Means of knowledge is not the end Giving up the giver is the biggest bend Knowledge will knock the knower  Ignorance is in the nature of the asker The wave number one is the knower of the knowledge The wave number two is the object of knowledge The wave number three is the means of knowledge  All the waves are ocean,  that is the knowledge  Waves are ocean but ocean is not the wave When this is clear, there is nothing to crave Names and forms are the beautiful flowers They are joined in a garland by Maya's power One may not say 'I know'  One may not say 'I don't know'   The seer and the seen is one and the same 'I' shines in all the forms and names  Class 38

 32.  Accept the non acceptance Veda declares clearly 'You are that' Not knowing that Jivā continue to chat There are many Upanishads explaining this Still one does not abide in this bliss Guru will bless you to live long So, you can pursuit until you lose the wrong Heart is given over to the other pursuits Desires are spread everywhere as grassroots Persistent inquiry removes the weakness twined Continued abidance strengthens the mind Samsarā and Mokśa cannot be roommates Light and darkness can never be together  Desire for wealth can become a coin that bites Desire for fame and award can create fights Desire to win young hearts can rob your time Desire to travel can keep you busy for dime   The  3M listed in Vivekachudamani shows the way To seek the infinite right now without any delay  Learn to accept the non acceptance of non acceptance Pour love and compassion all over with self acceptance (3 M-  mumukṣutvaṃ mahāpuruṣasaṃśrayaḥ) Class 37  (la...

31 . Seeing Isvara everywhere Subjective Ahankarā is swallowed in a gulp Actions and impetus for actions now drop No wants, no desires, gains, and no loss No absence of self when immersed in the cause Leader is looked upon by followers Better to act than sit without desires Krishna Continued to engage in actions He protected Arjuna from the weapons  Some Jñāni inspire people with activities Some Jñāni educate people with teachings Madukari vrittī makes them move from flower to flower Ajakara vrittī makes them sit in just in one tower They continue to act for others not for self This is explained in Bhūma Vidyā  as well Narada listed all apara vidya accomplishments He still could and sit still with no compalints He was told that he knows a lot of nothing He does not know that which makes see everything That which makes one hear nothing else That which makes one know nothing else  That one is Bhūmā which removes all terrors That is a mystery room filled with mirrors Th...

  30. Mathā solving the (Math )life problem Solving an equation with variables  Variables are different signs and numbers  5 + 4 = 100 - 91 is a puzzle for the young mind Jivā = Iśvarā is equally puzzling for the blind The variable called Jivā is analyzed in detail It is the awareness covered with body, mind veil It is the awareness confused with possessions It is full of complaints and limitations The variable called Iśvarā is examined in depth It is the awareness in full length and breath It is the awareness full of knowledge and wealth It is the overlordship, dispassion, fame and power  When the Jivāhood is removed on one side When the Iśvarāhood removed form the other side The equation is solved and the Ahankara falls The real 'I' shines brightly with perfect fullness Ravanā character depicts the samsarā in conclusion Ten heads full of confusion, indecision and delusions He robs away 'Śanti' which is depicted by Sitā Hanumān is the symbol of devotion a...

 29. The fall of the Ahankarā  The mind is a factory of thoughts  Flow of discrete separate thoughts They come in lots and make knots Likes and dislikes call their shots Mechanical thinking continues with no prompt One thought lead to the other while stomped Positive and negative fantasies rule the kingdom  Seeds of Ragā and Dveśā pile up with no wisdom Stopping the subjective projections is a great auxiliary Tracing the thought backwards is a form of mastery Thoughts jump like a frog and fly like a butterfly This exercise build muscle for the mind to comply Repeating the same mantra is Japā Staying in same position is Asanā They help tame the jumping frog They then clear up the brain fog Disconnect the string of connection  Listen with reverence and devotion Bundle up opinions, resistance and notions Attending one hour class itself is a meditation   When the mind was robbed and folded Mahāvakyā could have been unfolded The story of a blind man with a back ...

28- Deep dive  Once a upon a time, there lived a beautiful woman She is a smart and kindhearted human She was fetching water from a deep well  She bent down and dropped her hair jewel  She hired a deep water diver to help her out He is a swimmer who knows the whereabouts  Knowing the approximate location He held his breath and jumped in He didn't waste time looking at the fishes He didn't chase after the squeaky frogs He was not distracted with the quality of water He had single minded focus as a spotter He tied himself to a rope with his nostrils closed His senses and mind were calm and composed His focus was clear and he found the ornament He brought it back safe and handed it over Well is the deep seated Antahkarana Full of fears, desires and emotions 'As though' lost is the ananda Atmā Diver is the Jivā  tied to the Śastra  Guru, the rope gives a great grip She finds the jewel without a slip Vivekā and vairagyā are the qualifications Consistent śravanam...

 27. Rahu Ketu Eclipse The Six negative emotions are churned  Nectar and poison together are earned Danvantri brought the pot of immortality Destroying samsara with vitality Svabānu asura stayed back in Deva roster To drink the Amrutā as an imposter Vishnu recognized and decapitated Head and tail were separated Rahu and Ketu eclipse within as emotions Desire anger delusion cause commotion Greed  arrogance and jealousy flare Spin us around with temptation and despair Doors are closed with no warning Windows are opened for aborning Actions and results perpetuate again Samsara continues with no gain Self ignorance is the mother of this ego Continues feed the baby not letting go Three prong approach is needed For ignorance to be conceded Ignorance is destroyed, no more trouble The lake is placid with no more ripple Subjective Ahankara is tackled well The true inner self where I dwell Swamini Svatmavidyanadaji Class 33

 26. Ahankarā - The chameleon Pig rolls in mud, dirt made as sludge  Ahankarā rolls in names forms smudge People wants to be called the best They have a list of degrees as vest  multiple awards and medals hang in the wall Medals tarnish and become just a metal Blogs and vlogs entertain the world Showcase of dolls traps one whorled The children play 'house'  and enjoy The Jivā plays Iśvarā with these toys Hoarding continues and eats incessantly Wanting to be young persist endlessly The 40 becomes the new 30 The 60 becomes the new 50 While they confuse people with looks Though they want respect from young It is a chameleon with no color of own It evades the intellect and rules unknown When you analyze runs away as a ghost This knowledge can make us all toast Class 32

The dissection of Ahanakarā The anatomy class of Ahankara begins This dissection make us swim without fins Mahaṛishi dissects the Ahanakarā into pieces A mixture of sentient and insentient slices The aging nature of the body is confused The five loci of errors are owned The insentient nature of Sat is taken Ahanakarā  proudly says, 'I am existent' Also takes the 'Chit', says I know Forgets to borrow from the Ananta  Marries the shadow to accompany Complaints as limited with company Ahanakarā is the cause of the samsarā knot  Also the cause for mokśa, which is sought Plays tricks with vocabulary of karmā Imagines new meanings for svadarmā The 'house holder' is  actually held by the house Love and arguments fill life with the spouse It pollutes mind with desires and delusions It also shares lot of beautiful illusions  Inner child is immersed in this role play Until one enters the Vedanta class display Guru teaches the reparenting techniques With that Ahankara spin...

The two parts of Ahankarā Ahankarā composed of two parts  This is expressed in our hearts Objective component is given by Iśvarā Subjective component is from Jivā Though it is called with multiple names  The body, The ego, The knot, The bondage The subtle body and so on ...  All of them only create false image With inquiry subjective Ahankarā is subdued The scavenger, rag picker attitude is relinquished The scarcity , poverty mentality is released  The inner child is listened and pacified  Marriage happens with a hope to get a parent The spouse parents the inner child who is apparent  Some become students, wanting Guru to be the parent  Ideally the adult within should parent that inner child Class 30   

23.Where is this Ahankara located? Body does not claim as owner Body is inert with no thoughts Mind is also inert unless I joins Dream is known only when awake We experience this everyday in sleep Nothing is known despite the beep Upon rising everything rises Magical mythical Ahankarā surprises Where is this Ahankara located? Where is the GPS situated? The minute the inquiry begins Ahankara immediately disappears Class 29  (Later Part)

  22. Going Within  Search for  the true self Atma is continued Raw materials of Ahankarā is discussed Infinite seeking of finite things is dropped Finite search of infinite Atma is pursued   Name and form is everywhere But Atma is seen nowhere  Raga and dveśa filling the cave Mind is attacked by multiple waves Hidden inside is that bright light Lending its presence for everything  Crowded with thoughts, unable to see 'Adyatma Yoga' is the perfect key The three D description should be known Drama, Devotee and Difficulty are the zones Learn to see Iśvara within the imperfections Decrease the drama and stop the projections Stopping to complain is the first step Dropping of materials happen as a prep Swimming against the stream is a difficult task But necessary for the layers to unmask Turning inward is the quality of Dheera Search is focussed towards the 'Parā'  The D of the drama is removed Then only Rama is remained Swamini Svatmavidyanandaji cla...

 21. Let go of the Ego  Ahankarā is an imposter It grows when you foster If you question its identity Disappears as a fake entity Ocean of Samsara is suffocatingly scary Seaweeds of doubts make it less airy  Crocodile of fears crawling around  Confusion and despair makes one drowned The Vedanta teacher is the supreme  Often hidden like a spring beam Bend your body to show respect Ask for the knowledge that is well kept Understand the inability and surrender Offer the inflated ego to the vendor Accept the psychological order Let go the tendency to be a hoarder Let go of the ego... How to do it though? The only way to do  Is to offer it to God Accept the fact 'I am'  Offer it as neivedyam Swamini Svatmavidyanadaji class 28 

  20. Single Unbroken Cognition Intense vision of God  Is a projection that is odd Kundalini rising to the crown A perception eventually goes down  Permanent duality in different forms Mistaken points of multiple reforms Collective prayers make 'God' take form New 'Avatar' takes place to transform Mandukya  Atma is not an internal experience (Antaprajñā)  Atma is not the external world (Bhahirprajñā) Atma is not the combined 'Avatar' (Ubhayataprajñā) Atma is not the mass of awareness (Prajñāghanam) Atma is not just inert (Aprajñā) Atma is not just all knowledge (Prajñā)   Atma cannot be seen Atma cannot do any transaction Atma cannot be grasped Atma cannot be known by inference Atma is not enveloped by thought Atma cannot be communicated  Atma cannot be described  It is known through the essence of  that single unbroken cognition  नान्तःप्रज्ञं न बहिष्प्रज्ञं नोभयतःप्रज्ञं न प्रज्ञानघनं न प्रज्ञं नाप्रज्ञम् । अदृष्टमव्यवहार्यमग्राह्यमलक्...

19. Fate versus Freewill  Flower is Iśvara Sunrise is Iśvara Sunset is Iśvara What IS is Iśvara The path is shown The obstacles are blown Decrease subjectivity Move towards objectivity Book is Sarasvati Money is Lakshmi  Worship everything Perform, pray and sing Don't disrupt the flow Grow to get the glow Give the best you have Best will come back to you Let the frozen Ahankara melt Let the world be seen heartfelt Identify the world as 'I' Mind will fall and abide Debate between free will and fate  Continues from long before to date  It is same as the good old argument  Chicken or egg which came first One may say, today's fate  is yesterday's freewill Another may say freewill  is restricted because of my fate No argument if you know the truth No confusion if you know the source Consciousness has no fate Consciousness is free of free will The knowledge that self is free  Makes you free from this debate Maturity that is gained by thee Provides with ...

  A look back ( Simhāvalokana) Pramānā has has to be unique with a purpose It has to be meaningful like Śastrā propose Our vision was totally blindfolded  During the classes Śastrā is unfolded Week after week compassion was overflowing  Let us revise the classes that were mind blowing  Adjectives are words with strings  They differentiate and distinguish things Brahman is not an adjective or additive  Brahman is a noun, this has to be known  Laksanā is the term used for definition  Brahman is the one only that is unlimited edition  Animals are programmed, so no confusion  Humans have free will, so lot of superimposition 'I' is hidden under multiple layers of wrong notions Indicatory definition clears these commotions  That which accommodates is 'Space' To understand this we need lot of grace  'Blue' is the adjective used for a lily So it can be differentiated fully Blue, Big, Fragrant Lily is very descriptive  This is...